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2/15/2019

Pedophile Priest

FR. JOE PUNDERSON

By Kathleen Hoy Foley

In less than 60 seconds I could conjure up a list of men, including priests, whose predilection for sexually assaulting children and other vulnerable members of society would not surprise me. They would be the testosterone-fueled meatheads; men who feed on their power and authority and rule through fear; and men conditioned into cruelty and arrogance by prejudice and propaganda. Fr. Joe would have never made the list. Not ever.

I only knew him briefly back in the 1980s. I was drawn to him by his kindness; his openness. Phil and I were participating in a charity bike ride, Anchor House, to be exact, and we were headed to our destination on a tour bus. It was a long day’s journey to our starting point. Fr. Joe sat in the seat behind us. He was somewhere in his thirties, as we were, and was soft spoken and friendly. He chatted about his dreams of one day being called up to go to the Vatican. I remember the three of us laughing a lot. Especially about the enormous, dirty, big-flush toilet I encountered at a seedy rest stop.

The first day of the bike ride my bottom was suffering and Fr. Joe offered me his sheepskin seat cover. What a gentleman! Though I didn’t use it for too long. We hadn’t gone twenty miles along that country road before I hit a ditch and fell off my bike and was injured. He helped me up. How considerate.

When Phil first informed me that Fr. Joe Punderson was among the Catholic priests in the Trenton, New Jersey diocese confirmed as pedophiles, I felt as if I was floating in the middle of a calm lake. Blissfully detached from reality. Unwilling to allow the echoing terror of cornered children into my consciousness, so powerful was my attachment to the sweet Fr. Joe I’d met and spent time with all those years ago.

I didn’t want to let go of my fantasy and replace it with horror. I didn’t want Fr. Joe to be a pedophile. I didn’t want Fr. Joe to have succumbed to his perverted sexual compulsions; to have abused his absolute, church-given authority; and to have created perfect opportunities for himself to rape children.

I didn’t want to inconvenience myself with the truth. I didn’t want to disturb my nice memories of him. I wanted to continue floating detached and undisturbed on my make-believe lake remembering Fr. Joe as a soft-spoken, kindhearted soul, a rescuer of injured women. But I am not a coward. And if I ignored the vile facts in favor of fostering my feel-good fantasy, then I am complicit in his brutality. If I deliberately close my eyes to what is too painful to look at, if I turn away from his victims, then I reject profound love.

Fear breeds complicity with abuse. Fear of losing. Fear of knowing. Fear of being forever lost. Fear of being disloyal. Fear of speaking. On and on. It is only, only through confronting difficult truths and making inconvenient, tough decisions based on those truths that the profound reparative and restorative powers of deep love and connection to divine love becomes available to us.

The path of profound love is intense and inward. It is oftentimes difficult and oftentimes painful. It requires us to grow far beyond our vision. It calls for us to evolve further than our imagination or desire can currently take us. It challenges us to become fully empowered. Profound love insists that we stay attached to truth. When we tap into the universal power of love we begin to see, we begin to understand and we develop the courage to take the difficult actions that support our highest good and the universal highest good.

Profound love does not pretend or masquerade, or offer petty, superficial assurances of wholesale forgiveness. Profound love radiates light into the darkest corners, and offers deep knowledge and wisdom, and requires courageous action. It is the path to our inner light; it connects us to our soul; and connects our soul to the universal light, to universal love.

This is true for Fr. Joe Punderson’s victims. This is true for Fr. Joe. This is true for all of us.

Namaste

In Vision Communique Week of Dec. 24, 2018

12/28/2018

In-Vision Communiqué

Spirit energies communicate in their own interpretative language which is received through the senses, read by intuition, and illuminated by the heart. It is the receiver who determines the personal message. Please be mindful that intuition is meant to lead the intellect, as intellect is a disruptive force to intuition.

Communiqué from advanced spirit energy
seeking to deepen and advance our conscious understanding and soul development

THE IMPORTANCE OF WHAT YOU LEAVE BEHIND

Vision: A tall white marble pillar, a monument rising high toward the sky. A radiant white glow of expanding, luminous light. A fiercely exploding (erupting) volcano. An image of a person with a style too cool for words–must’ve been the aviator sunglasses.

Then the words: what you leave behind is important. What you leave behind is reserved forever in time. What you leave behind is received in time and forever held in time. It is your slot, like a reservation at a restaurant.

“What you leave behind is reserved for all time.” This is a law of nature. It is never broken.
Archaeology is how “the future” answers questions from the past. These inquiries from “the future” are true for all, not just public figures. You are a public figure in your family/group/circle, etc. They are interested in you. “The future” will be interested in you. What you leave behind is important for you.

Awareness and Repair are the operative words, the operative concepts. Repair–never guilt. Repair deep wounds.

Your time is your reservation, reserved only for you.
   ~~~

In my experience advanced spirit energies always connect with kindness and wisdom. At times offering tidbits of truths that meander around the heart like a soft wisp of vapor and the muted intuitive call to listen closely. Other times, with a shock of charged energy that shouts for attention.

Consistent also are the themes of expanded awareness (consciousness) which refers to our soul’s evolution into its highest expression of itself, and the uncovering of our true selves and discovery of our soul’s deepest desire/purpose for existing right now on this plane. And repair which refers to profound recovery from deep emotional and spiritual wounds. Without repair, we remain trapped in fostered lies and enforced indoctrinations.

Also unwavering is the certainty of personal evolution by developing an expanded understanding of ourselves and our purpose, which in turn, radiates light outward to others.

Our radiant light–so necessary for outward illumination–is easily smothered by any punishment we impose on ourselves: guilt, self-chastisement, self-harm, etc. Punishment terminates our growth and ensures continued pain. Emotional pain will ferociously consume a life and all the beauty surrounding it…khf

Awareness and Repair. What you leave behind is important for you…ase

Namaste
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In-Vision Communiqué Week of Dec 17, 2018

12/21/2018

In-Vision Communiqué

Spirit energies communicate in their own interpretative language which is received through the senses, read by intuition, and illuminated by the heart. It is the receiver who determines the personal message. Please be mindful that intuition is meant to lead the intellect, as intellect is a disruptive force to intuition.

Communiqué from advanced spirit energy seeking to deepen and advance our conscious understanding and soul development

These are not socially driven times.
These are self-driven times.
This is not a bad thing.
The stronger the self, the stronger the whole.
* * *

A FORCE FIELD OF LOVE

Vision: I see a mountaintop and hear the words, “force field of love and altitude” and immediately understand the symbolism: love is the highest, most evolved form of energy.

Through experiential memory this advanced spirit energy reminds me that when a vocalist sings a song that touches and influences your heart you are absorbing that singer’s energy transformed into love. That transformed energy–that love energy– connects with your heart because you allow love to touch you. And for that real-time moment, you are in the force field of love–you feel it. Your heart may swell. Tears well up in your eyes. For that moment you are transformed.

The advanced spirit energy is quick to remind me though that we are always surrounded by the force field of love, whether we feel it or not. The feeling (ex. from the singer) is an attribute, a manifestation, a feature of the force field of love surrounding us. But the feeling is not the love.

* * *

An Encounter With
SPIRIT LOVE

It is not at all unusual for me to be body-slammed by spirit energy around strangers when we are out and about. If all the stars align, I gladly–with permission from the startled stranger–pass forward the message. Last Saturday was such an occasion.

As soon as she walked in back of me, the energy surrounding her made me wobble as if I’d been bumped unexpectedly by a wave surging toward the shore. Phil and I were in a little store, back where they keep the Buddhas and gongs. I inched a little closer to her, a woman probably somewhere in her thirties, just to confirm the energetic presence. The closer I got, the more intense and physical the vibrational energy became. That is to say that I felt like I’d poked a finger into an electrical socket. That’s how it works for me.

She was sweet, but understandably confused when I told her that someone she knew who was in spirit wanted to deliver their message of profound love for her. This spirit, I knew, was a female, maybe a cousin, a friend, or an aunt close in age to her.

The love surrounding this young woman from her spirit friend was overwhelming: pure, undiluted, intense, and profound.

Later during meditation I would see the energy around her as vibrant, crystal clear red. I didn’t know at the time, nor did she, that the profound message of love was from a childhood friend who had passed. It seemed appropriate. The woman was pregnant and her old friend wanted to express her deep love on the occasion of such joy.

It is always an honor to deliver messages of such profound of love in real time.

Namaste
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In-Vision Communiqué Week of Dec. 10, 2018

12/14/2018

In-Vision Communiqué

In mysterious ways that I don’t completely understand but have gradually come to accept, I connect with highly empathically advanced spirit energies desiring to communicate messages. These evolved energies seek to deepen and advance our conscious understanding and soul development.

Spirit energies communicate in their own interpretative language which is received through the senses, read by intuition, and illuminated by the heart. It is the receiver who determines the personal message. Please be mindful that intuition is meant to lead the intellect, as intellect is a disruptive force to intuition.

Week of December 10, 2018

THE DARK PATH OF PROFOUND TRAUMA

Vision: I vividly observed a path of gray, packed-down dirt winding through a woodland thicket. Darkness. Dense trees and thick vegetation rose up the hills on either side of the path. The path was very long. All was dark. Then arrived an herb and vegetable garden, overgrown and tangled, full of brambles and brush. Then the appearance of a city with a large, concrete type building that at first looked like a bank, a mercenary institution which then converted into an ancient gothic cathedral with tall spires.

A man emerged in priestly garb wearing a flat brimmed hat. I realized he was a monsignor, a prominent authority in the Catholic Church. His energy was very negative. In front of him was a child, a little girl about nine, with long hair down her back wearing her Sunday-best winter coat. The little girl was awestruck at the surroundings, looking up and all around. I watched as she became physically entangled with the monsignor.

A long procession of priests appeared and I heard, “There was a mistake made,” wherein the priests were unmasked and shown to be thugs and mobsters. The overwhelming sense was a mess of entanglement.

I then saw a river, clean and calm with some light around it and heard, “It takes a long time.”

This vision symbolizes the extreme complexity and struggle to overcome the tangled chaos, confusion and emotional pain of unresolved trauma and the lengthy, difficult path to wholeness.

It highlights the genesis of the trauma as corporate, institutional, and authoritarian, perpetuated against innocence and obedience.

It offers the assurance of light when the path is allowed to follow its natural course.

* * *

“ILLUMINATION THROUGH LOVE”

Vision: A path winds through city and suburb. There is a group: parents leading several children, a dog tags along. There is joy. The group enters into a building, it looks like a church. The group is united together.

I saw then a luminous glow of purple and heard, “Illumination by love.”

This vision symbolizes the familial and community (as implied by the symbol of church) necessity to protect the innocent and defend, shelter and support those traumatized by despicable individuals, institutions and events, past and present. While illuminating trauma victims through understanding, loving perspectives, and supporting and encouraging personal empowerment.

* * *

ENTRUSTED WITH A VISION:

WHAT AWAITS

Several years ago as I was writing BREAKING THROUGH SILENCE, A No-Nonsense Love Letter To Women, I was entrusted with a vision that at the time I did not recognize as such, even though I felt compelled to include it in the manuscript.

If visions count for anything, I saw empty white veils in silhouettes of women strewn out on strange sands before me–graceful, diaphanous husks fused to the shore, billowing in the flurry of each passing breeze. Behind them, sudden dazzling daylight and colors so brilliant that I had to blink for the intensity. And a maze of shapes I’d never noticed before. The sheer simplicity and dizzying complexity of vision, of all that stretched beyond the ghost women and the black-dress barricade, was as astonishing as smog lifting and unveiling the ocean.

Hidden by fog, the ocean is only thunder and roar, ominous and deadly, waiting to drown me should I dare tempt its depths. But once it was illuminated, I saw its dance and sway; sunlight diamonds twinkling over its sky-blue water blushed with jade; waves frothing, pounding to climax against sand, shells, sea glass; receding in shivering ripples and contented gurgles; the sun shimmying across its horizon. Beyond the black barricade of lies sat a bright, active world I never knew existed. (Excerpt: Breaking Through Silence)

This vision symbolizes what lies beyond the comprehension of a victim suffering profound trauma and who remains (however overtly or subtly) trapped in its tentacles of dark lies and cunning deceit. Beyond the dark exists incredible light and immeasurable possibilities. Personal effort reaps indescribable rewards.

Namaste
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In Spirit Message Week of December 3, 2018

12/7/2018

In-Spirit Message
The fundamental purpose of inter-consciousness/spirit energy communication is
development of a deeper understanding of truth and evolution.
You don’t fit truth into your perception—truth expands your perception.

If a message resonates with you despite unrecognizable details, the message is for you.

Received By khf

JACK PARR

This male energy made connection from a distance, appearing on a small television screen that seemed to be from the 1950s. As his energy drew closer, I observed him to be intelligent and sophisticated. When he showed a close-up of himself on the television screen talking with other people, I recognized him as Jack Parr. (Jack Parr was a popular nighttime talk show host somewhere in the late 1950s – early 1960s.)

I know, what’s Jack Parr doing coming to Chatsworth via collapsible time, space and motion? Evidently celebrities are no different than any other spirit energy when they want to put a message forward.

Mr. Parr stated that television today is ODIOUS, which he spelled out in capital letters (odious means extremely unpleasant; horrible. I had to look it up.), banal, and is too focused on entertainment. He indicated that he’s not criticizing, merely observing.

Before he disconnected, Mr. Parr made a point of showing himself walking three dogs in New York City–2 large, longhaired dogs and 1 smaller dog. And said that “a little truth will never hurt you.” He lit a cigarette and was gone.
* * *

KENNY THE GHOST

This spirit connected with a spurt of energy suggesting that he was a runner on the earth plane saying that he ran a route in the “canyons” somewhere along the California coast; the ocean was close by.

He called himself Kenny and said that he was a musician on the earth plane. It appears that at some point he had a financial arrangement with a much older woman who supported him. She could have been his mother, an elderly aunt, or simply a financial benefactor. At any rate, Kenny didn’t have to work and evidently he didn’t.

Due to his involvement with this financial supporter, Kenny said he lost his life vitality and when he passed in 2003 he “left a life unlived.”

During Kenny’s connection, except for the spurt, his energy was so low, his essence–his vitality–was barely existent. He was like a ghost–empty. He seems to be as unproductive and undeveloped energetically on the spirit plane as he was on the earth plane. He was bored and boring!

I think that my mother, Mary Patricia, said it best in Forget About Heaven:

“Nothing is given. All is earned.”

Namaste
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About the Author

In the provocative spirit of Matilda Joslyn Gage, Gloria Anzaldua, and Mary Daly, Kathleen Hoy Foley expands and deepens the voice of female experience.

Raw. Uncompromising. Compassionate. Deliberately antagonistic. Kathleen writes to awaken the courage within the reader.

TO THE SURVIVOR
If you are a person who was victimized as a child or as an adult, I am so very sorry you ever had to suffer at the hands of a predator.

I am sorry you were abused, sorry no one protected you, sorry you have felt so alone, sorry you have been so afraid then and in the now. I am so sorry for the loss of your innocence.

You were and are entitled to you life. And you had a right to inherit your own body. And no matter what you did or what you think you failed to do you are not to blame. Sexual abuse is never a victim's choice. Sexual abuse is something that was done to your body not something you wanted.

This is an excerpt from:

http://web.archive.org/web/20130101063123/http://true-perspective.org

Kathleen and I encourage you to visit this site for perspective on your ordeal. Live happy and whole. Claim you power!

You are your own authority.

Question Everything. Including social, religious & political authorities

Learn to listen and respond to your intuition. It is never wrong.

Learn to be impolite. It must be part of your defense system.

Nothing is unspeakable.

Stare truth in the eye and speak it.

You name abuse. Listen to your body. It will tell you. It is never wrong.

Stare abuse in the eye and speak it.

Stare abusers in the eye and name them.

Use your voice. Use your words.

BE LOUD. Violence against girls, boys, women and men hides in the silent shadows.

Know that you are powerful.

KNOW THAT YOUR VOICE IS POWERFUL. USE IT.